So tour is over, stampede week is over, and summer had begun. Tour was a blast, it was awesome going to back to Halifax and seeing and doing all the things I didn't get to last time. Parts of tour really did suck, but for the most part it was a really awesome tour. Stampede week was fun, suprisingly it went quite fast, well too fast in some ways. Anyway, I have decided to go to beauty school in the fall, which will be really awesome, its something that I have always wanted to do and I think that it is going to be a lot of fun. Hmmm, what else...oh what is permalink?!?! maybe someone can help me out there? I watched the Lion King last night, I haven't seen it in forever and I never really realized how awesome the music is, I loved it before but I love it more now :) So I guess thats kinda it for now, but I'll try to keep up messages for the rest of the summer..we'll see tho.

Well after 2 weeks of tests I am finally done high school :) YAY! My grad banquet was almost 2 weeks ago now as well, that was a blast I has an awesome time, and my parents and me took a lot of pictures so I am scrapbooking them in the scrapbook Lee's mom gave me :) Since Wednesday I have now finshed almost half the scrap book :D I have a lot of free time, it was basically study, sleep, eat, scrapbook for the last couple days. Anyway I am headed to Halifax today, not too many people will probably read this until I get back but thats ok. I'm very excited. Anyway I might not have too many more entries until Stampede week maybe if I have time and if not it'll be last July. Well i'm off :)

Well it has been a long time since I have written an entry so I thought I should write one. Life has been interesting lately, somethings have gone bad somethings have gone good. I've realized some mistakes that I have made in the past and I have figured out how to fix them but I think that it might be way to late to fix them or even salvage whatever pieces are shattered on the ground...which has been really hard on me and others around me because it has caused annoyance to them and a really upsetting feeling for me. But enough with the bad for now...I graduated :) well "graduated" but it was really kewl, I didn't trip across the stage or anything so it was a good day. Umm, we marched spring concert which went really well. It was hard because my mind was on everything else but the show and to concentrate on just the show and just marching for 15 minutes was really tough for me that night but I did it and it felt really good. Besides the slippery floor and injuries it caused (Lee I hope your ankle gets better soon cause it worried me when you sat off) it was a great run. Anyway I will try to write more on here again soon.

Ok so this may be a hypocritcal blog only because I am sometimes a offender of the low rise pants...but at least I make a point of attempting to make sure I pull my pants up before I sit down or I wear a belt! See yesterday at school I was walking down to band practice from chemistry and low and behold there is the group of grade 10's getting their stuff from their locker. Now since tour we have become much closer with our grade 10's and they have become much closer with us, its quite nice. But there is this one grade 10, I can't say I know her well, but she plays sax. Anyway...so she is running around goofing around and flirting and all of the sudden she bends down to pick something up, and oh my god not only did you see thong, but crack and butt hanging out of her skirt...GAG! Now I know low rise is the way most bottems are made now, as I do wear a lot of low pants, and often you don' t think and yes you show some underwear, which is not attractive really by any stretch, but sometimes it happens, but a little underwear can be tucked in, this couldn't be tucked in believe me, because when she stood back up the butt and crack were still hanging out. So I have now decided to become much more aware of my underwear and pants position at all times because I really don't think anyone needs to see that part of me if it looks anything like it did from her.
So thats about it for me tonight, and I would like to send out a thank you to the creater of belts.

Well...life in general lately hasn't been great. I have managed to make things worse as well, which is completly my fault and therefore I am just making my problems bigger. I mean when you want something so bad that you would do anything for it, but then you do everything and realize that you just needed to do nothing and that you dragged out something that could have been resolved much quicker, with most likely less painful moments, by just leaving it alone for 2 weeks, you feel pretty stupid. The problem is although I have realized this fact...I still can't leave it alone, which is only making me more unhappy. So in the words of Mrs.Henderson..."be patient and things will always work out in the end, I promise." So now I need to relax, leave things alone and be patient. New paragraph...So I was watching Moulin Rouge the other night (one of my favorite movies, the music is amazing) and the main quote that stuck out at me that basically sums up the whole movie was "The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return." And today I realized how much it hurts when you love someone so much and you don't know if they love you back, and you realize that you gave that person a similar feeling at some other point in time. So although as much as you hurt inside, the only other thought you can think about is...I can't believe I made someone feel like this. It does help make you feel better thats for sure. I've been doing some stupid things lately as well...I guess it goes along with my first paragraph in saying that you'd do anything for something, but only some are related to that situation. I guess I haven't really thought about myself lately in a sense but at the same time I have been extremly selfish, which again is getting me no where, a thought which you'd think would have hit me sooner. I guess thats about it for now, I'm not good at just writing, so this is more of me just blabbing about thoughts. I leave you with yet another Moulin Rouge quote... "Never knew I could feel like this. Like I've never seen the sky before. Want to vanish inside your kiss, every day I'm loving you more and more. Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing? Come back to me- and forgive everything. Seasons change, winter to spring. I love you. Until the end of time."

So I haven't written in about 2 weeks because I have been preparing for my audition as well as going to Halifax for a school tour, which I realized I didn't really tell anymone about until like the day I left, like people other then family and stuff. Anyway, the audition went well, I hope at least...I played really well I thought and it went quite smoothly so hopefully that is a good sign. Halifax was a blast, I just had so much fun in general and it was definatly an awesome school tour to do in grade 12. We left Tuesday morning very very early, and thought we'd be there by 5 Halifax time, but we got delayed in Ottawa for 6 hours and didn't actually get there until 1am Halifax time, which is only 10pm in Calgary and so no one was really tired until we had to be up at 6 the next morning...yea that was only the beggining of late nights and early mornings :P But we did so much in the time that we had, the first school we were supposed to play at and with cancelled so we had a chance to explore on our own the first day as well which was nice, because it was exploring Acadia University which is so amazing. The older buildings are just amazing and look so kewl, and the few new buildings are so just wow, thats the only word that can describe them is wow. Lots of things to see there, we went to a dinner theatre one evening which was just hilarious, and the food was amazing and I sat with my friends and just had a blast. Now I think I am just blabbing about the trip, so please bare with me. There was some very frusterating parts to the trip like angry fighting friends, and an extremly frusterating festival performence. But the good definatly out weighed the bad. We had the most amazing jazz band performence, it wasn't flawless or anything, but it was the best we had ever played the music together, it was fun because it was in a pub set like a jazz cafe, the whole band was there watching us play plus tons from other bands and we just played and after it was one of those performences where someone could say anything negitive and it wouldn't crush the adreniline rush you had. And, I got the biggest compliment from the ajudicator, he said in the one piece we played I sounded like the bari sax player from Tower of Power :):O For those of you who don't know Tower of Power download one of their pieces and you'll hear why thats such a huge compliment. So now I am home, skipping school in theory because I wasn't woken up this morning so I just slept and decided not to go to school until this afternoon. Oh and Taylor I'm sorry I didn't even think about the music until I was sitting in the Ottawa aiport going...hmmm i'd be at band right now...crap i have the music on my kitchen counter :(. Anyway I am off to relax some more.

So anyway today was a well not so great day, so I am going to be cranky and get pretty much everything out, feel free to read or just ignore if you so choose...So to start off the 'wonderful' day, as many of you know I have torn muscles in my shoulder which every so often act up and hurt a lot more then usual, well today was one of those days. And its not so much that I want to complain about pain, its just one of those things that after having to have your mom wash your hair in the sink and not being able just put your hair in a ponytail it becomes more then a physical pain, but rather just a pain in general. So then I went to school, which I cannot wait to be done because after 12 years I am ready to move on to something new, anyway school also sucked. I spent a good part of the day listening to people talk about their problems and what was wrong with them and I just wanted to scream because when you are having a bad day the last thing you want to do is be listening to everyone elses problems, not because you don't want to listen but becuse there are other things on your mind that at that moment take priority over them..like chemistry! So my assistant principal seems to think that teachers should not give extra time to students who need extra help and that they should not be enrolled in such classes where they can not understand the concepts from the class time given. Well if you know me, I'm not a stupid person, I usually get things when I am taught them and I understand them actually quite well, but I don't know how to apply them. This is mostly in math and chemistry. So I ask for extra help and usually still don't apply it correctly but I try hard, so I found it quite frusterating that such administration was saying I should not be recieving extra help. The good news is that I am still getting extra help from both my teacher and Lee so hopefully I'll figure out the whole application thing. So then I came to my job at school band, uniform person, why because I did it last year and I am patient (for the most part) and well I can get the job done. So our band is going to Halifax next week and I have to make sure all the uniforms are ready to go and in good shape like no missing buttons and everyone has ties etc...oh and making sure everyone remembers to bring their uniform because I am not bringing extras. So my lunch hours for the next week will consist of checking people buttons and re-attaching the missing ones, remind me again why I volunteer?? So yea that completed the school day, which considering the days events went much faster then I thought it would...now I will go into the evening, which is more my personal thoughts more then what actually happened. So lately I have been very up and down about certain things. Mostly personal, so no great detail. Oh, so the last few weeks I have realized that its hard to just let certain things go, like people giving you glares for reasons you can't figure out and the only reason that makes sense is a pretty stupid reason. So basically I have had some 'words' to say to these people and I know I won't say them but I just don't get it, I mean I don't think I've done anything wrong. I just don't understand sometimes, anyway my mind needs to rest so I am off to sleep. Amy"bitter and cranky" Colluney

Well after much thought I have decided to join the trend of those before me and make a blog. No promises on how well it will work and how up to date I will keep this. So keep looking in from time to time and hopefully there will be something new and exciting for you to read.